I never thought that I would meet Newt a week before my wedding day. He had been my neighbor since my childhood. Suddenly, he came to my house and knocked the door while I was reading magazine to choose my wedding dress. Therefore, I was shocked and surprised because I knew he joined in the army and he left the camp without permission or usually called ‘A.W.O.L’. So, he really made me worried for he had to get strict sanctions in prison. On the other hand, I felt happy, really happy for actually I loved him but I never showed him or talked about love for he was too shy and as a woman, I couldn’t begin. Actually, we were close friend and maybe too close and I lost him since he joined in the army. Then, Henry Stewart Chasens, my fiancé, came and filled my emptiness during Newt left me. Henry was good enough for me, so that I received the engagement. However, it seemed too long for me, too long for waiting Newt. Unexpectedly, Newt asked me to walk with him but I reject it because as a woman who had been engaged it wasn’t good if people saw me walked with other man except my fiancé or my family. Finally, I couldn’t hard reject his request because I was missing him too as he missed me and I know that I missed the moment where we were together, the comfortable when I was beside him.
Huffst… I felt my heart beat fast during our trip and I could not hinder my feeling, my love, my happiness, and all that he made in my heart at that time. Finally, he confessed to me that he loved me! He also loved me! But… How could I express it? It wasn’t right, I had been engaged! I had a (good) fiancé! Aaaargh… I tried to hinder my feelings from Newt, I shook his hands to show our friendship but then I cried because I couldn’t control myself. I realize that I loved him but what could I do? Suddenly, he kissed me! He kissed me while I was confused and it was absolutely crazy! How dare he was! Kissing me just add my problems, dear Newt. In brief, he tortured me with his attitudes and words. Then, he continued his effort to convince me that we can be together. He asked me whether I really loved Henry or not and he also told for many times that he loved me. I was feeling guilty to Henry and Newt. Henry not deserved betrayed by me and Newt, I was sorry for being a liar, for lying to you that I loved Henry. Oh… How dare you came and disturbed my engagement? Didn’t you know I always loved you, Newt? I sure he knew for women weren’t very clever at hiding their feelings, and it includes me. Newt, the bound between us was enough to unify us. Then, he kissed me again for I wanted too.
We continued our trip until we arrived in large orchard and Newt asked me to sit down under the shade of an apple tree and he also promised to not touch me. I guessed in my mind what he meant but I still followed what he wanted including to dream of my wonderful. I almost slept while Newt slept first and during that time, I adored him with all my heart. Then, Newt woke up and asked to marry me! I was really happy but I still confused. It was too late darling for someone had had me so I answered ‘No’. Then, I was regret to said that and he walked away quickly, slowly disappear. However, I still hoping in my heart if he stopped, turned and called my name, I would follow him. “God, please made him come back for me,” that was my prayer. Finally, my prayer heard, Newt stopped and called my name. I would not let this chance passed me. I was really sorry to my family and Henry to make you disappointed, I knew this was not good but I couldn’t let my love gone for the second. So, I ran to Newt, I put my arms around him, holding him tightly. I love you Newt. I always love you forever.
For with God nothing shall be impossible (Luke 1:37)
