A Week Before My Birthday :)

Aha !! !

I've deactivated my Facebook and Twitter accounts.

I've been tired and so sick if I open those social media for they contain so much memories with my 3rd ex-boyfriend.
So, I choose to write my feels and thoughts in my blog.

A week before my birthday...
I'm so busy with my jobs and assignments as a 3rd year college student,
have to prepare proposal for making thesis (pfiuhh...)

I get so many problems, such as:

1. My beliefs

 Since two years ago, I've felt like a sinner and I try to change, to be a New Christian, doing what I believe, what my heart says about a true Christian and especially, do what Jesus teaches me to do. However, there's sounds whisper that  I am a sinner. Feeling guilty, my super ego condemned me. Huffst... I wanna free... I'm tired of being a sinner.

2. My family

I know that having a complicated time with family is such a burdened for me, everyday... crying is just my habit. Hate that! One of my wishes is on my 23rd birthday I will be more tough and still stand. Keep praying, myself :')

3. My social relationships

I'm too egoist. Yes, I know. I just think about myself. I can't watch or care about my friends or my boyfriend,,, forgive me, there are others things I've to struggle and I don't want anyone to give me more burden. I'm sorry, I can't be what you want.